Happiness, Sadness and Anger

My sister, Debi, after having suffered through a very long illness (really illnesses), passed away yesterday. I had just seen her for her birthday last Saturday and although she was cheerful and up with us for dinner and the entire party, it was clear to me given her physical condition that she probably would not last much longer. I never lose hope entirely, so yes, I did still hope for a miracle, but it wasn't to be. I am not sure how I feel right now. Yes, I feel sad and I also for some reason feel incredibly angry. I feel that I would just like to punch things and throw things and scream at the unfairness of all the suffering she had to go through. I feel happy that she is released from her suffering and I feel so horribly sad that I will never see her again while I live. Debi, besides being my sister was also my best friend and I will miss her more than I can put into words.
I would imagine the blog here, so far as news goes, will continue as though nothing has happened. Things that require little thought and yet keep my mind somewhat occupied, like news blogging and house cleaning are welcome distractions, rather than wallowing in my despair. If I seem a bit strange (or stranger than normal) in the coming days, weeks or even months, you will know why.